Choices

 if given a choice i know not what i’d pick

how does one make those decisions?

listing pros and cons?

copying others?

maybe i should let others decide for me

nary a thought in mind of my own preferences

only the standards and norms of today’s society,

the society with ever-changing opinions and rules

what was right then is wrong now,

what was wrong then is right now

what do i need?

what do i want?

can i not have both?

No.

i am given choices,

choices i don’t necessarily take to

limited choices where it’s this or that

it is then that i ask,

must i choose?

must i pick among only the things set before me?

can i not be free from the chains that are the judging eyes of everyone,

including myself?

more than anything, i set my own restrictions

but, even those are swayed by the public’s whims

for they say we are all one in body, mind, and soul

individuality is an illusion

everything is but a social construct

in the end, I am not me, nor do I know of a time where I ever was